Ok .So by your thinking, I shouldn't hate the seed either. They didn't personally harm me ,(except for 3 1/2 months of 10 to 10's, and the lack of food until I made it home). But I'm not just speaking for myself here. I saw what they did to other people. Just because you were spared their wrath,(more than likely at someone else's expense) ,you have to at least remember what you saw and heard.You are living in a 40 year delusion,if you don't really believe that the seed did more harm than good. OOORR your ego won't allow you to believe you fell for the con.