An interesting piece of trivia which may help you understand your feelings: In Australia and even in some parts of the united States you could kill a gay person just because you found out he was gay. It was called
“Gay Panic Defense”. This was used successfully in many murder trials where the person was thought to be justified in murdering a gay person because he feared being “hit on” by that person therefore the defendant became the victim, like yourself. When you found out Psy was gay you felt cheated and threatened and therefore victimized by him. Or maybe you relate to him on a different level and wonder why he disrespects himself by speaking openly on an unmoderated forum.
I didn’t sense any religious reason for your feelings towards gays in your post so I will suggest to you that you either have a difficult time expressing yourself sexually and therefore are envious of those who can comfortably do this more openly or that you are a homosexual yourself and are self-loathing (in the clinical sense). There is the off chance that you were sexually molested by a man when you were young and therefore blame gay people for what happened to you. These pathologies are different than bigotry. You want people to think you are a bigot and lack education on the subject, but I think differently.
I described sexual and psychological disorders above. But what is hinted to me in your post is that you are
not ignorant of sexuality in yourself and others and you don’t fear people who are different than you because you didn’t exhibit hatred towards Psy and therefore you are not a bigot by definition. You tilted your hand when you used the word
Respect and
respectful and compared Psy to a model which he fails to live up to on your scale and hinted that it was uncomfortable for you the way he is viewed by society (
in your eyes). This Respect is important to you and I think you fail to respect yourself because you are gay and disappointed in yourself and/or your parents are disappointed in you and lost respect (or might lose respect for you if they found out). People who are comfortable with their sexuality whether they are gay or straight don’t fear respect like you do.
Based on your post of what you find to be important in life and the way you expressed yourself I am going to guess that you are young (18- 23)….. therefore I would like to suggest that you check out the following books:
How The Homosexuals Saved CivilizationThe Velvet RageThe New Gay TeenagerGood luck Guest.