Hey Starry,
Sorry Man, but I wasn't talking to you.
Frank D. had a legitimate post, and deserved a response.
Hippie knows me. I read his posts and responded to him. I don't come here often, and didn't realize that responding with a private message was an option. Hippie, check your PM. What you said was low, and lies. You could have said terrible stuff about me that was true, but your lies made you look what, cooler? More in control? For who? You've got my number and e-mail. I'm still waiting for your call.
Starry, If I want you to "confront me", let me know who you are. If I owe you a personal amends, you'll get it. That's "program" talk - steps Eight and Nine.
We confessed to the group, not the person we harmed. I don't confess to the group anymore.
They didn't have steps 8-12, remember? Why not? I think it was changed to create a perverse sort of tribe. Unity by mutual shame. Tribalism. Us vs. Them. Insiders vs. Outsiders. It's called groupthink, herd mentality, mob-rules, "Group", mind-control. It's been used on populations since we wore skins and lived in caves. Straight didn't invent it, they didn't even do a very good job of it. Good Lord, they sucked at it! Who believes any of it anymore?
Wasn't their message in it's simplest form:
"If you aren't with us, you're against us?"
Isn't that what they are saying still?
Are some here saying that now?
If you hate what Straight did to you then, don't practice that behavior here now. I've posted in the past, and each time, angry people who don't identify themselves go nuts with anger - it's
like cyber-review. I reject that option.
I'll talk with anyone who wants to talk. I won't yell. Or swear. Or get in anyone's face. Ridicule, shame, anger, xenophobia, those weapons are used by people interested in Control. And those who are still in the grasp of that place.
Cincinnati, my cousin went into cincy first. He was seriously damaged by that place. We can't even talk about it. My sister and I into VA second and third. It was a family affair.
We all have a right to say our thing on these forums, but based on the dates we were all there, most of us must be pushing 40. Why do so many posts on this site appear like they are written by teens? Didn't we get any older?
Hating Dean won't make it better. Hating anybody won't. Hate is a control mechanism. It limits independent thinking. Whoever fabricated that yahoo page of "Dean", that's not him. That's not even his photo. He'd be 46 years old now. Years ago ('92?) I faced him, said my piece. I didn't get the response I was looking for, but I didn't do it for him. I got it over with. Saying it in these forums instead would not have worked for me.
People have sought me out for the same reason. I get it. If what I want you to unload is mine to own, I'll own it. Happy to help. Apologies will be made, personally - not in cyber-group.
If you read some scary story about me third hand, written by some anonymous poster in chat room scrawl, and want to know if it's true, don't bother to ask. If it involved you, send a Private Message.
If you want your experiences to be taken seriously, to make people aware, speak in a reasonable tone. Nobody believes what a raving lunatic says. If a woman screams for help in an alley, most people won't even look. If she yells fire, people come running. At least they'll sniff for smoke or look for a fire.
The people who turned it into an industry will probably never pay. Not Sembler, he's an Ambassador now. Diplomatic Immunity laws are in effect, here and abroad. Does anyone else find that an enormous coincidence? Too many self assured people of power would need to have changes of heart, and give up thier investment money for that ever to happen.
I won't hate because they want me too.
The Best Vengeance is a life well lived.