Wow! I stumbled apon this forum about, what, 2 or 3 years ago. I can't believe people are still posting. I was involved, almost obsessed at first, and then I had to disappear. Ihaven't been back to this sight for well over a year. I was diagnosed with PTSD,largely from my experienceat MMS,and revisting this sight constantly was causing a lot of angst. My therapist at the time felt stongly that I should make itmy life's mission to bring MMSdown, to speak out, to fight. I decided that route may be for some (thank you kat) but that it was causing me more harm than good. If any of you were there from 94-96, you probably remember me and and were glad you weren'tme. I was truly one of John's first "pet projects." My entire college thesis was dedicated to my interactions with John, the confussion, the fear. THere was enough material for an entire book. Anyway, hello to anyone I might know. claire