you seem really sweet Bluemoon, i love the proverbs your leaving, are you really considering going back? are granny and papa still there? better yet still able to get up and down without help! i would never go back, im sure there are other places in the good ol' US of A that would be better, i watch a show on TV1 called Starting Over, its a house for women in Chicago, it really seems to be life changing for those women, just a thought.