http://http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#!/topic.php?uid=2234330403&topic=3393"Last thing I remember, I was
Running for the door
I had to find the passage back
To the place I was before
’relax,’ said the night man,
We are programmed to receive.
You can check out any time you like,
But you can never leave!"
Anyhow, I think that verse is the creepiest out of all of them, in accordance to Élan.
That is a really similar conversation that I had with Kate Hawkins. I was ONLY a DH getting evals for shingle when I was asked to go into the ring with Tiffany. Kate told me that she could promise me shingle, if I went in. I asked for the 100th time "this is my decision though, right? I mean I am about to get shingle anyways, I don't see why it would affect it." Kate left it alone and then Marty came and tried the same thing on me. I can see how Marty was intimidating to a lot of people. But to me, I always pictured him as a gawky pimply teenager, as a goofy looking man who spoke improper grammar and knew he couldn't get a job anywhere but Élan. A full grow man who got his rocks off by controlling children. To me he was pathetic. His manipulations fell on deaf ears. My entire 3 years at Élan that was the only conversation he had with me.
It took me almost a month to get shingle. Kara told me that all the coordinators thought I was ready. So if all the coordinators had answered YES, why was Clare writing NO? I guess it was my punishment for NOT doing something that was "completely voluntary"
I got the whole shpeal about how I wasn't being a role model if I didn't stand up for Élan eight by fighting Tiffany.
AS for the actual ring it all went down when Tiffany hid under the raft in the middle of the lake. Headcounts noticed she was missing so the house lined up at the bottom of the hill. Just as we were really freaking out and coordinators started scattering into the woods to look for her, someone yelled THERE SHE GOES! and she was hauling ass Olympic style across the lake, 5 people jumped into the water after her and 2 coordinators got into canoes, and when Marc Nueman got next to her she kicked his boat over and luckily he had a life jacket on because his Timberlands filled up with water and he was in jeans and he couldn't move. The entire house watched as she swam into the horizon and Jeff Harttnet followed in a canoe. We all went to the house and had no idea what was going on on the other side of the lake. It was pretty scary.
My guess is that Tiffany was 95-105 lbs at the time. But Jeff Hartnett was probably 6'0 and 200 lbs. The story we were given after Tiffany was brought back to the house was that Jeff tackled her when she got out of the water and she picked up a rock, over powered him and bashed his head in. We were pretty horrified, Jeff was a real sweet guy, and he couldn't help that he HAD to chase a splitter. It was his job. Jeff was supposedly at the hospital and came back with his entire head wrapped in gauze. It looked silly, and not like anything a doctor would do.
SOOOOO, after little, brand new resident Tiffany swam probably about a mile (a triathlon swim is usually 1/4 a mile) She got out of the water and had the super human stamina to then overpower a full grown man and beat his head in? He caught her, so did she really beat his head in? Would she have gotten away? This was the story Clare Woodman told in front of the house until we all thought Tiffany was a pure demon. The meanest most horrible human in existence. DURRING Claires little house meeting was the time that Jeff wobbled through the door with his head all wrapped up. Coincidental timing? Or a well thought out parallel for dramatic effect? All I know is that I was on Tiffany's SP a lot after she was brought back and thrown in the corner. She had a gash on he leg that needed stitches. Staff refused her a Band-Aid. Days later it was completely green and yellow and infected. Jeff’s head wrap also came off within 24 hours while he was covering the post and there was no sign of any massive head trauma as we were all supposed to believe. The head wrap went back on before the house woke up though. Tiffany told me several times while she was in the corner that Jeff tackled her, there was no one around and she was scared. She was helpless on her back in the dirt and she reached over her head and grabbed a rock no bigger than a cigarette lighter, she closed her fist AROUND the rock, and tried to punch this guy to get him off her. (Remember she was in a wet bathing suit and frantic to get out of a very scary cult, she was willing to do anything and was really freaked out by the things she witnessed as a new resident) The rock fell out of her hand after one attempt at hitting him failed.
That was also the story I got from Tiffany 3 years AFTER the incident when I visited her in Boston. We talked about all sorts of corruption and guilt. She would have told me the REAL story. I am sure that is the real story though. There was no sharp jagged boulder, no pathetic little Jeff being overpowered by and exhausted, sopping wet 14 year old monster. But when her 3 house ring came around, the story GREW.
It GREW as the words were shouted to the 160+ kids from Marc Rosenberg’s mouth. She was made to sound even MORE evil, he stated she was trying to MURDER Jeff, she wanted to KILL HIM!!! Everyone got so crazy, frantic and enraged that they were booing at her and screaming at her as she was brought out. Marc Rosenberg Took her head gear and slammed it onto the top of her head. He did it so hard that all of her hair flew forward and was being held in front of her eyes and face like a dense curtain. The girl was totally blinded.
I was 115lbs and even that would have been an unfair fight but they decided on Robin Johnson, a 5'10 180 pound girl who was at Élan for violence related reasons. She swung at her over and over again Tiffany didn't even see the swings coming. She fell on the ground and people laughed mockingly at her covering their mouths or pointing, some people screamed for her "to get up you fucking baby!" and a select few were just saddened and shocked by what was going on around them in their little bubble world. A world that was being proven in front of our eyes was impossible to escape from. After Robin was done beating the shit out of Tiffany and élan 3 girl who was even larger, maybe 200 lbs was cheered in and by this time Tiffany couldn't barely move, I thought she might faint, throw up, collapse. I am sure the staff would have enjoyed that though so she just tried to protect herself. It was scary watching all of the staff members faces twist into malicious smiles, and veins pop out of their foreheads as they screamed to "KICK HER ASS!" in shrieks of pleasure. It was one of the sickest things I've ever seen. After a few more rounds they pulled off the head gear. There was blonde hair from tiffany's head laying at her feet, her face was swollen and patches of red covered her whole body. She swayed as she tried to keep herself standing up straight and 160 students surrounded her, closing in and screamed in her face while their spit landed on her cheeks and in her hair. All of the life from Tiffany’s eyes had disappeared. Marc stopped us briefly to put me and another girl at Tiffany’s sides. We had to hold her up and force her to stare at the other students, since she was to weak to do it on her own. I remember looking out into the see of screaming faces, angry kids who were so broken that they didn't know what they were doing. 2/3rds of them never having met Tiffany b4 this Ring but HATING her because of the power Marc Rosenberg possessed over them. I remember feeling scared of my surroundings, like nobody had a mind of their own, like invasion of the body snatchers...like Why has not ONE person out of this whole room stood up and yelled "STOP IT! LEAVE HER ALONE! SHE IS A CHILD!" All she wanted was to get away from Élan. This was her "therapy" to make her stay? I knew why no one stood up for the true right thing... Because if they had, they would have been next, we all knew it and we were all afraid. So we followed what we knew wouldn't get us any extra attention. What a scary, sick fucking place Élan is.
But Élan wouldn't exist unless PEOPLE created it.