Posted by Ken H (24.163.193.124) on April 10, 2000 at 06:29:08:
In Reply to: What a liberating experience posted by Kathy on April 10, 2000 at 03:43:28:
: Ginger, I've only just now, finished reading all the messages posted on this board. I just can't believe how liberating reading all of these posts is. I had no idea I possessed so much unrest about this subject. Ever since the experience was over, I put it in the past and left it there. I've always referred to that place as "the place." I couldn't and obviously still prefer not to address the place by its name, because to me it's the nastist word. I have started to retreive some articles from newspapers from that time frame. It was such a validating and liberating feeling. I can't believe I only now have decided to try to retreive all that was lost during those years of isolation. I thank you and Wes and this entire board for helping me out. Memories that have been long lost seem to be appearing in dribs, drabs and droves. And I now know everything I have always thought about the place is real, not just my imagination as, well, "the programming" would have me believing. I love your very first message. It's great!!!
Funny you should mention refering to "Straight", as "that Place". That's how I think about it a lot of the time. The thing they kept drilling in my head over and over, is that I was in a "drug rehab", and that I "did the necessary things to put myself there". What a bunch of (#%#%). For the record, "let's set this straight", I never did anything to deserve being treated like I was. My parents "MONEY", did the necessary things to put me there. Too bad I wasn't part of a family in a lower income bracket. "Straight was preying off of my parents desperation to "help" their troubled kid, and if "Straight" didn't "help" me, I "would die" How dare them cram down our throats that kind of shit? I was no different then any other adolescent out there, with all the normal insecuritys to go along with it. Well then, fearing rejection from my family if I left, I "played the game", because I was brainwashed by that point. Almost 2 years later "the place" they told me was a drug rehab, (yeah right) graduated me(after sucking all the money they could out of my parents), they gave me my walking papers. That's it?, after 2 years of unspeakable abuse (I'm still not ready to talk about it), their attitude was like "Well Ken, your fixed now", and left me to pick up the pieces. It wasn't until that phone call form Wes in 1997, that I started acknowledging for the first time in my life, that it was O.K. for me to be hurt, that not everything in the world that happened was my fault. Yes, indeed those leaders of "Straight" had, and have a lot of answering to do. All I can say today is that more and more information is coming out in the wash on all those leaders. It's a sickening shame what extremes some people will go to, even by harming others for a dollar........That's it for now...........Ken